The best part of the rebuild. Part II.
Passion:
1: any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate.
2: the state of being acted upon or affected by something external, esp. something alien to one’s nature or one’s customary behavior
3: Archaic. the sufferings of a martyr.
4: Ardent love.
“It’s all about Passion – (latin root-Passio) – willingness to suffer for the ones we love. ” I read as he signed off the letter he wrote me. My brain was at that state where I needed to come to a decision. My heart was getting ready to harden or to heal as I tried to find myself in the end of the brokeness I experienced last year. During the three-month off-season we had, I had been trying to decide if I was going to play football again or not. Coach Maddox’s words rang through my head as I read it again. ” “It’s all about Passion – (latin root-Passio) – willingness to suffer for the ones we love. ” I didn’t know that day if I would play again or not but I could feel the words turning all kinds of emotions on in my heart again. “I still have this tear in my shoulder.” I thought to myself. “Unless this coach is magic, whats the point.” I was discouraged. ” Haven’t I suffered enough” I thought of him feeling upset. Last season football had taken everything from me so much that it had suffocated my love for the game. I had no hope in football anymore. I had played my entire life on boys teams and last season was the hardest year I had ever had. In football and in life. My brain was ready to walk away. Its like looking back on a fire that just burnt my house down. Nobody wants to see that over and over again.
I sat there and the waves of emotions and the thoughts that swirled in my brain confused me. They didn’t line up. My brain had been suffocated but my heart had just been given air. “If we can help you let me know…otherwise stay strong. ” He had written in his letter. Coach was offering help from the Quarterback Academy. “What is he challenging me?” I thought “Way to make me want something I cant have” I thought “Typical guy.” My thoughts continued to try and poison my heart. So I wrote back to him with my number. I needed to talk to this guy who was spinning my world upside down. I was just about to walk away from football and this coach reaches out offering hope. “Now what” I thought as I waited for him to call. I could feel my attitude being humbled & I could feel my heart being opened .
I cant exactly remember the conversation we had that night but it ended with a decision for me to attend the Quarterback Academy in Orlando in May. I remember thinking ” What do I have to lose if I go & they cant fix me ?” I didn’t have anything to lose. I had everything to gain. I had a shot at playing again. A game that took everything from me certaintly deserved to give me one more year. A shot at redemption & everyone loves the come back story.
I attended the Academy over the past weekend & all the lessons football had taught me last year were completely reaffirmed at camp as I listen to the coaches teach the guys about football and about life. Watching the team of coaches interact at the QBA I was blessed to actually see what a real team and its connection is suppose to be like. I learned what real men are suppose to be like. All the ways I let my team down last year and all the ways I have been let down surfaced as we went through the various drills, as I learned new mechanics & as my brain tried to attack my attitude all weekend. I learned that we can’t do everything on our own. Being a quarterback isn’t about doing everything on your own, its about doing everything to put everyone else before yourself in order that the team might benifit. The coaches didnt just say the words, they actually lived that way. I listened to their conversations between eachother and listened to the way they talked to the other players. I was also blessed to see the way they treat women & the way it’s suppose to be. I watched the way they served each other & the football players at the camp. Coach Maddox did have magic & so did all of the other coaches that coach the Academy. They have charm backed by integrity to do whats right even when they don’t want to. They radiate with the strength to encourage others to play again and to play harder, smarter and better than before & they work with all their might to pass these traits to others.
Charm:
1: a power of pleasing or attracting, as through personality or beauty:
2: a verse or formula credited with magical power.
3: any action supposed to have magical power.
4: a trait or feature imparting this power.
5: to endow with or protect by supernatural powers.
6: to act upon (someone or something) with or as with a compelling or magical force:
I will play with the Baltimore Charm this year. I can’t promise my family, the QBA, coach Maddox, the league, my teammates, my coaches or that community & the fans that I will be the best quarterback in the league but I can make a promise to play on the field and in life with passion. “It’s all about Passion – (latin root-Passio) – willingness to suffer for the ones we love. ” I can promise you that I will work with all my heart to serve you to protect you from the season & the life I had last year. I can promise that I will work wholeheartedly in order that you might receive the gift I received through the example set at the QBA. I can promise that I will remain thankful that you accept me with open arms to play another season, to train me, to coach me & to love me. I can promise that you are important to me & at the end of it all, its not the football I have come to love wholeheartedly. It’s you & the opportunity we have to influence those around us to be a formula of magic power & to influence your life through Passion & Charm. So from a quiet heart. Thank you.
~Oh yeah and Lets go Charm.
~KG.
Ahh, Super Bowl Sunday. The greatest day of the year. Unless, of course, you’re a Minnesota Viking fan. Then it’s just plain torture. But enough about me, let’s talk about this year’s Super Bowl. Peyton Manning’s Forehead and the Indianapolis Colts against Drew Brees and that thing on his face. Oh, and the New Orleans Saints are there too.





They say that in life everything happens for a reason. It has been extremely hard for me accepting that everything in life might have a reason but that I might not always know what that reason is. Last year at this time I was struggling in a broken marriage and I began to use training for the
Where we work, who we are dating, what we wear, who are friends are, those are not things that define who we are. When I played little league football and when I was in the military those leaders would say stuff like integrity, excellence and service to others is what defines character. I understood what they were saying but I never challenged myself to really truly grasp the internal meaning of those things. After the hardest year I’ve had in my life I finally get it now. Character is what defines who we are. Character is tested and built through the trials and every experience we have in life. The choices we make define that character and it can help or hurt those we care for or that care for us the most.
Kristen McNamara plays football in the backyard with the guys, loves the Vikings and watches 10 or 12 hours of football every weekend, but when she tried to jump into the world of fantasy football leagues, she was greeted with a no-girls-allowed sign.








